Lost

I close my eyes and take a deep breath. I want to refocus my mind, to make sense of what is happening, but I feel nothing. It’s just blank. Empty.

This emptiness bothers me. It makes me feel unreal. Like I don’t exist.

Once upon a time I could close my eyes and delve deep inside my conscious. It would give me peace and strength.

Now I don’t even seem to be able to find my conscious. I’m missing something. That spark. That energy. That feeling that everything will be okay. That calm in the midst of this chaotic world that we live in.

Have I lost myself?

I need to find myself. I want to find myself.

©️ BijM01, June 2018