How important is it to care? What does caring really mean? And what does caring represent?
I didn’t mean to stop caring. I didn’t want to stop caring. But I had to stop caring, as by caring I was hurting myself. My beliefs, my values.
Caring took away my smiles, my laughter, my contentment. It took away my confidence and my pride.
By not caring I feel a little more free. A little lighter. It doesn’t hurt in the pit of my stomach anymore. The knots have been eased.
But oddly, by not caring I feel like I’m cheating. Cheating the company I work for. Cheating myself.
Why am I spending day in day out on something that I don’t care about? Why am I wasting my time, my energy and life on something that I can no longer care about?
Is not caring more harmful than caring? Is not caring only a short term fix?
©️BijM01, June 2018
Normal is not real 