I’ve always struggled with love. Especially telling the people I love that I love them. My throat dries up and I choke, trying my best to hold back the tears that are that are waiting to burst out. Fighting to keep them in.
I’m not really sure why I struggle so much with affection. It could be because my family doesn’t really talk about feelings…. about the serious things that matter. We don’t openly tell each other that we love them. So now I don’t really know how to tell someone I love them without having some sort of emotional breakdown.
If I’m truly honest, I don’t like people seeing me cry. It makes me feel weak. I don’t disclose my feelings to others as it makes me feel vulnerable.
But at the same time, all I really want to do is tell the people I love, that I love them. And not be afraid to show my vulnerability.
©️BijM01, August 2018
Normal is not real 