Nobody seems to understand what I am going through. I feel so alone in this big wide world. Part of me doesn’t want to share my feelings to those close to me, cos I don’t want them to worry about me. The other part is just dying for an opportune moment to pour my heart out and tell them the truth.
The truth that I’m struggling to just get through every day. That I’m scared of doing a lot of things. I’ve become scared of being anxious. And then I get more anxious about feeling anxious in my every day life.
Once I start feeling anxious, I find it difficult to shake the feeling off. My whole day becomes ruined by worrying that I will feel anxious again. I seem to be stuck in a rut. Worryingly, I seem to have lost faith in myself, my mind, body and soul.
I’m not really living my life. I’m avoiding lots of things. I’m avoiding living… fear, worry and anxiety seem to be embedded deep within me. And I’m struggling to cast it out.
But nobody seems to understand this. I’m feeling sad and alone. And hurt.
©️ BijM01, October 2018
Normal is not real 