I’m scared of people… I’m scared of you. And today I realised why.
Why am I avoiding eye contact when speaking to people? Why do I constantly look away and act like I’m in the middle of something?
Obviously, I’m hiding something. I’m hiding my true emotions and state from the world.
I don’t want people to look at me and be able to read me. To find out that I’m unhappy. That I don’t know what I’m working towards. I don’t have a goal. I don’t know what to do next or where I want to go. Both personally and professionally. So I’m just carrying on with what I’m doing. Standing still, not growing. Not developing. Even though I’m not happy.
And I don’t want you to know that. And that’s why I’m avoiding you.
©️BijM01, April 2019
Normal is not real 