What I really want is for my mum to hold me, whilst I cry in her arms. It’s coming back, it has been for a while. I know something is not right. I’ve been feeling irritable, angry and annoyed… something’s not quite right. But I can’t possibly put my family, my parents through anymore grief than I already have done.
I feel like a failure. I’ve failed as a daughter and a sister. The two most important relationships in my life. I’m a fake and a phoney, giving people false hope. Pretending I’m ok, that I’m normal, when I’m not. Shame on me.
©️BijM01, April 2020
Normal is not real 