A little bit of you still exists. Every now, and then you creep back up and I feel a nervous sensation in the pit of my stomach. My breath changes, ever so slightly, and my muscles tense. My mind automatically starts thinking of the worst case scenario. And that’s when it happens; fear comes swooping in.
Fear. False Evidence Appearing Real. This is how a friend explained it to me, and and every now and then, I hear myself repeating these words in my mind as I attempt to reframe my thoughts.
Slowly, but surely, I am working on this automatic psychological and physical chain reaction. Chipping away and breaking the thought process. Working on not being afraid; afraid of the thoughts or feelings. Afraid of being afraid.
My confidence is making it’s way back and I am able to take a step back and change my thought process; to understand the situation isn’t as bad as I think it is. To tell myself I can do this. To not be afraid. Replacing panic and fear with soothing self talk, understanding and positivity.
I will get there. My mindset has shifted and fear is no longer ruling my life. It still exists a little, but it’s far more manageable and not overpowering in a way that literally stops me in my footsteps.
©️BijM01, June 2021
Normal is not real 