So many

So many dreams, so many hopes. All bundled up and rolled into you, into us. I guess you never really knew the impact you had on me.

I never take chances. I never take risks. I never put myself out there. I never let anyone in.

I let you in. That was a massive deal for me. More than you’ll ever know. I took a chance, a leap in you, in us. And I was honest to the core about everything, my hopes, my dreams, my being… everything about me.

I’m struggling to see how I can move on from you. Your every mannerism, your every emotion, your eyes, your smile, every bit of you is etched into my heart and soul.

I can’t explain the dull ache. The lump in my throat. There are so many tears that have escaped my eyes and flowed so freely in memories of you. Of us together.

It’s so hard not to love you. Not to care. Not to want more.

©️BijM01, October 2021