I'm trying to work out actually what will be the bigger regret... not doing something, or having done something and then getting hurt? Is trust the most important thing in a relationship and if you have that you can move forward without commitment? Or should you wait for the commitment so you feel more secure … Continue reading The bigger regret
The anxiety makes me feel like I'm not good enough. Why am I letting it make me feel like this? I am strong, I have faith in myself. I am good enough. I know this. So why am I letting a little bump in the road, a little dip affect me like this? I know … Continue reading The A Word
We're all always on the look out for a sign. Something that tells us whether we should or shouldn't do something. A guide almost, or indication that we are on the right path. But what really is a sign? Is it the voice or act of God? Is it a message from a higher force … Continue reading Signs
Come find me in my deepest, darkest moments. Come find me in the depths of my soul, which is waiting to engulf you. Come find me in my intense thoughts, my most deepest dreams; those that I keep hidden and locked away from those around me. These thoughts and dreams are waiting to invite you … Continue reading Come Find Me
Hi, it's me again. Super analytical me, who spends way too much time analysing every small detail of what has happened, why it's happened and worse of all what could possibly happen. It's the last one that actually causes the biggest problem. Because this is the one that stops me from doing things. It stops … Continue reading Super Analytical
Change is uncomfortable, but necessary These words have resonated deeply with me today. I've realised that over the past few years, I've become resistant to change. I've been stagnant. I've stopped growing, developing and moving forward in all areas of my life. I've become so afraid of change and afraid of being uncomfortable. Me developing … Continue reading Uncomfortable
Tell me, can you feel the kisses I've left for you? The ones just above that spot on your cheek where your beauty spot is? These are kisses of hope. Of anticipation. Of faith. Of passion. But most of all of love and belief. Belief that what we have is real. That it's something special. … Continue reading Kisses
When I close my eyes, I can feel your presence. When I run the tips of my fingers through my hair, I feel you watching me. When I smile I feel like you are smiling with me. When I laugh out loud, I feel like you are falling for me a little bit more. When … Continue reading You are there
Self confidence. What is this I hear you ask? And does it really matter? The answer is yes, it matters. It is one of the most important traits a person can have. Faith in yourself. Trust in yourself. As a person and in your abilities. Your thoughts, your emotions. Feeling strong enough to be by … Continue reading Self Confidence
What I really want is for my mum to hold me, whilst I cry in her arms. It's coming back, it has been for a while. I know something is not right. I've been feeling irritable, angry and annoyed... something's not quite right. But I can't possibly put my family, my parents through anymore grief … Continue reading What I want
I'm not feeling great today. After so long. After so much progress. Today I've met with a big bump in the road. And all it's done is frustrate me and made me think of all the things I can't do. It's made me feel inferior and subordinate. It's made me feel frustrated with myself and … Continue reading Not feeling great
So today I am 35 years young. As I look ahead to my 35th year on this earth, I make a wish for love, contentment, compassion and the ability to serve those in need. As I look back on my 34th year, a feeling of resilience overcomes me. I can honestly hand on my heart … Continue reading 35 years young
What's meant to be will be. No matter what happens, if you are meant to be mine, and me yours, then that's exactly what will happen. Nothing, or no one can change that or take us away from each other, if we really are written in each other's destiny. And just so you, and this … Continue reading What’s meant to be will be
A little prayer, a little wish. One to mark the start of a new beginning, The next chapter, a new leaf. One that I'm finally ready for. One of love, hope and togetherness. A hope and faith that makes me feel whole, that makes me feel complete. One where I feel good enough, and that … Continue reading A Little Prayer
Hello. I'm here. I'm waiting for you. And I'm more than ready to finally meet you and spend the rest of my life with you. Loving you, respecting you, supporting you and watching you grow. Completing you, making you a better version of yourself and allowing you to be anything you want to be. Tell … Continue reading I’m here
Tell me, how many times have you taken a leap of faith? Does this expression actually refer to faith in yourself, others or both? I rarely take a leap of faith in people I don't know. In fact I'm one of those who keeps everyone at an arms distance. Never giving the game away, never … Continue reading A Leap of Faith
I believe that in this big wide world, you are out there. I believe that you have been made just for me, and one day we will meet and know that we were written in each other's destiny's. I was made for you and you were made for me. And together we will make each … Continue reading I Believe
Pick me up from this dark place, filled with a million different thoughts, almost in a race. My mind is running all around, this is tiring, and leaving me with no place for anything profound. This state is making me feel empty and unreal, almost like a quitter. When I'm like this I'm really not … Continue reading Pick me up
I don't know what to do. For the first time in my life, I feel like I'm wondering around aimlessly. I don't know what I want. I don't know what I'm trying to achieve and I don't have any goals. When I need to make a decision about something important, I honestly don't know what … Continue reading Don’t know
Hello, I hear you say. I'm back again. And this time I'm going to push your boundaries. I'm going to test your faith, belief, strength and resilience. I'm going to try my hardest to break you. My anxiety is back. In full force. I could feel it coming back, but was trying to carry on … Continue reading Hello
Normal is not real 