All of my life I have believed that I don't care what other people think of me. What others do does not affect me and is none of my business. It's not my problem. I can do whatever I want without thinking twice about them. But recently I've realised that I do care. Very much. … Continue reading Worrying about other people’s opinions
Dreams
As a child I had many dreams. My main dream was to grow up, be successful in my career and to marry the man of my dreams, and have my own beautiful children. The success of a job didn't matter as much as having my own family. Of having the good fortune to be someone's … Continue reading Dreams
Cry
I want to cry. To feel the pain that's inside of me come rolling out in the form of tears. Salty tears, that roll down my cheeks and with it roll out all the pain, anxiety and unsteadiness that I am feeling. Feeling and carrying with me, day in, day out, whilst pretending to the … Continue reading Cry
The beach, beach, beach
The beach is by far, one of my favourite places to be. I don't know what it is about the beach, but I could stand there all day. With my toes curled up in the sand... looking out to the sea. I could watch the waves day after day, hour after hour, and still feel … Continue reading The beach, beach, beach
Choose to be Happy
Happiness. It's an odd thing. Is there more than just a moment in time when we are truly happy? And what does true happiness actually mean? I've been told many a time to be happy. And today I heard "choose to be happy." This got me thinking, are you telling me that this whole time … Continue reading Choose to be Happy
Life, Tears and Belief
Life is a funny thing. The ups, the downs, the laughter, the tears. That feeling in the pit of your stomach. Sometimes good, sometimes bad. The tears that sting your eyes, the ones that you fail to understand. Are these happy tears, or sad tears? Maybe they are just tears of relief. Or maybe they … Continue reading Life, Tears and Belief
Caring
How important is it to care? What does caring really mean? And what does caring represent? I didn't mean to stop caring. I didn't want to stop caring. But I had to stop caring, as by caring I was hurting myself. My beliefs, my values. Caring took away my smiles, my laughter, my contentment. It … Continue reading Caring
You get what you give
Life goes by so quickly, Before we know it days, weeks, months and years go by. What are we searching for? What are we all trying to achieve? Do we notice that our lives filled with the same routine day in day out, just goes flying by and that special something or someone is never … Continue reading You get what you give
Faith vs Fear
I've always had fears. As much as I try to overcome them and give more precedence to faith, for some reason, I keeping failing in this endeavour. This has been more evident over the recent months. I am unsure how to proceed now. Do I keep trying and hope that one day it will all … Continue reading Faith vs Fear
Free
Where do you come from? How do I find you? Does being free exist? Come and envelop me with your pure love, Infuse me with your positivity, Fill my entire being with the ecstasy of peace. All I actually desire is peace. Peace and calm in this noisy world. The noisest place is actually in … Continue reading Free
Self Acceptance
Why is it that no one accepts you like your own self, but at the same time no one abuses you like your own self? Does this mean that when you accept yourself, others too will accept you? And when you abuse yourself, others too will abuse you? Remember no one can make you feel … Continue reading Self Acceptance
Hidden
Even in the darkest of moments, my heart bleeds for you. My eyes fill up to the brim, and an intense feeling of pain overcomes me. My soul is scurrying all around, searching for you, Searching for something, anything, that will ease the pain, Something that will help to eliminate this intense feeling which is … Continue reading Hidden
Letting Go
Everywhere you look, every motivating site there is, in every word of wisdom quoted, you’re told to Let Go. They make it sound so easy. But how do you truly let go? If you have lived with something for so long, how do you then just let it go? That feeling, that pain.... it somehow … Continue reading Letting Go
Lost
I close my eyes and take a deep breath. I want to refocus my mind, to make sense of what is happening, but I feel nothing. It’s just blank. Empty. This emptiness bothers me. It makes me feel unreal. Like I don’t exist. Once upon a time I could close my eyes and delve deep … Continue reading Lost
Normal is not real 