The anxiety makes me feel like I'm not good enough. Why am I letting it make me feel like this? I am strong, I have faith in myself. I am good enough. I know this. So why am I letting a little bump in the road, a little dip affect me like this? I know … Continue reading The A Word
Hello, I hear you say. I'm back again. And this time I'm going to push your boundaries. I'm going to test your faith, belief, strength and resilience. I'm going to try my hardest to break you. My anxiety is back. In full force. I could feel it coming back, but was trying to carry on … Continue reading Hello
Strong. Determined. Focused. Reliable. These were all words I would use to describe myself. Unfortunately anxiety has wiped away the very essence of my being. These are words I no longer associate with myself. My identity has changed. ©️BijM01, March 2019
This is such a difficult phase in my life. I cannot explain how much I struggle on a day to day basis. To get up and go to work. To sit on my chair at work trying to relax, when all I can think of is how tense I am sitting there. Pretending that everything … Continue reading I want
I'm struggling. I'm struggling to move on and away from my feelings of anxiousness. I feel like being anxious has become part of my identity now. I can't seem to move past this. I don't want anxiety to be the basis of my identity. I worry about being anxious all the time. Whenever I have … Continue reading Anxiety
Ever since I was a little girl, I've put up this front with people. One of resilience, strength and a 'don't mess with me' attitude. I also pride myself in always keeping cool, calm and collective. Never giving the game away and never allowing all but a handful of people to know the real me. … Continue reading Me and my Persona
Nobody seems to understand what I am going through. I feel so alone in this big wide world. Part of me doesn't want to share my feelings to those close to me, cos I don't want them to worry about me. The other part is just dying for an opportune moment to pour my heart … Continue reading Nobody understands
I close my eyes and take a deep breath in. I slowly exhale, almost waiting for the weight on my shoulders to ease. To drop. I've been feeling so tense lately. My shoulders are stiff and sensitive. The slightest touch of my shoulder blades leaves me wincing in pain. And the worst thing about all … Continue reading I Caused It
Normal is not real 