I feel proud of myself and everything I've achieved. I feel proud of my hard work and my dedication. I'm glad my colleagues and suppliers found me helpful and recognised my worth. This company made me, but also broke up. I guess it's possible I became too personally involved, too invested. The time for change … Continue reading Change
I'm trying this new thing, where I love myself. Where I work out exactly what I want from life and take steps to achieve it in the hope that I will feel more happy, aligned with my goals, and at peace. The thing is, I can't do that if I remain in contact with you. … Continue reading Trying
So many dreams, so many hopes. All bundled up and rolled into you, into us. I guess you never really knew the impact you had on me. I never take chances. I never take risks. I never put myself out there. I never let anyone in. I let you in. That was a massive deal … Continue reading So many
I guess you'll never really know how much you meant to me. You'll never realise how deeply I had fallen for you, how blindy I trusted you. How deeply your name was written in my being. Every word you said, every dream you dreamt, I accepted as mine and made sure was written into my … Continue reading Written
In this journey of life, I had resolved to help you carry your burdens. But you decided you wanted to carry them alone. Our connection, our meeting, our union has to rekindle again. Our spark can never die. Our connection is made to last a lifetime, and not just a fleeting moment of fancy. In … Continue reading This Journey
May my Sai bless you with an abundance of happiness. May my Sai bless you that all of your aspirations and dreams become reality. May my Sai bless you with so much love, that it spreads to everyone around you. May my Sai bless you with enough wealth, to share with those around you. May … Continue reading Bless You
What's meant to be will be. This is the way things always have been and always will be. If you're meant to be mine and me yours, then that's exactly what will be. Nothing and no one can change that. So I'll carry on believing and having faith. Because what's meant to be will be. … Continue reading What’s meant to be
When did you stop believing? It must not have been a sudden thing. You must have had some doubts that led you not to believe. Everytime I had doubts, you convinced me otherwise. But I always had faith and belief in you. Maybe I fell for your sales technique without even realising. Truth is I … Continue reading You stopped believing
Maybe you think I'm being stupid. Maybe you think I can't take the hint. But I still believe. I still believe you're the one for me. I still believe that I was made for you and you were made for me. I still believe that we are each other's love, support, strength, inspiration and peace. … Continue reading Still believe
Where does self belief and self confidence truly come from? Is it something that is innate in all human beings, or are some people simply more predisposed to it based on their surroundings, life events and the people in their life? What causes self confidence and self belief to wither? Why do some people lose … Continue reading Self Belief and Self Confidence
I'm still actually in disbelief. After all this time, after everything we've been through, you've left me. It feels like you left me at the last hurdle. I thought we were meant to be together forever. This hurts. What happened to our faith and belief in each other? I feel broken. How do I let … Continue reading Disbelief
It's only been a few days and I already miss you. I miss knowing you're there. I miss your voice. I miss your energy. I miss your positivity. I miss your smell. I miss your hair. I miss your being. I miss your touch. But most of all I miss that you were mine. I … Continue reading Miss you.
I feel a little lost, a little numb. I'm not really sure how we got here, but I hate that our communication has stopped. After everything we've been through. So many tests, so many tribulations. How can we fall at this point in our journey together? How can you be ok with not communicating with … Continue reading A little lost
Does perfection ever really exist in any form? Do we ever really feel like the moment is perfect or that we are in the perfect place in life? Are we ever really perfectly ready to move on, to grow, to the take the next step? Or do we accept that perfection will never truly exist … Continue reading Perfection
There's so much going on in the world right now. I think it's fair to say that the last 16 months have been intense, testing, life changing. So I'm taking a step back. A step back from it all; life, expectations....you. In order to protect myself, I'm going to disconnect myself from you. I can't … Continue reading Taking a step back
A little bit of you still exists. Every now, and then you creep back up and I feel a nervous sensation in the pit of my stomach. My breath changes, ever so slightly, and my muscles tense. My mind automatically starts thinking of the worst case scenario. And that's when it happens; fear comes swooping … Continue reading A little bit
Wherever I am, wherever I go. It is there. For as long as I can remember, for as long as I've dreamed; it's been there. All these years have gone by, so many days, hours and minutes have passed. But it's still there today. Shining brightly. Like it's always been. Hope. Hope that my dream … Continue reading Hope
Some days are good, some days are bad. But what's important is that you keep on going. You've come so far in life and you've got through far worse. You can do this. The only constant in life is change. And if you're experiencing a bit of a bumpy ride at the moment, ultimately, in … Continue reading Some days
I'm not sure what it is I'm actually seeking. Is it the human touch? The comfort? The sense of belonging? The having my own? Do attachments cause greater pain and is it better to be free? In all honesty, life is so much harder and unfair than I imagined it would be. Not once as … Continue reading What am I seeking?
Somewhere in the darkness, there is light. Somewhere in this all engulfing pain, there is forbearance and hope. Somewhere in these tears, there is a smile. Somewhere in this hate, there is love. Somewhere in this pride, there is humility. Somewhere, there is a balm of love and peace, an oasis of calm and happiness. … Continue reading Somewhere
Normal is not real 